I don’t even know where to start, considering that I haven’t been here for 5 months or so, and so much has changed in my life.

let’s start… most of u know what happened, I came to Germany, following a dream, being totally happy and excited about my ‘year’ here. Surprise surprise. It went 110% different. Since the very first night here, my homesickness went awful, I think that still nowdays, none really understand my homesickness, some people think I exagerate and all that, but the truth is that it feels real.

If u consider that I was a 20 year old girl, who had never been far away from home, who had never left her country, that lived with mommy, who used to do anything she wanted her to do, that I didn’t even know how to do the loundry, that anytime I wanted to cry, I’d take the bus and 5 minutes away I’d have my sister telling me what to do.

and suddenly… boom! I’m in a different country, with people I don’t know at all but I have to trust in, with a language I can hardly speak, living alone, learning to do stuff I never used to do, dealing with other culture, a different weather, and much more stuff that were the biggest shock of my life.

And when I wanted to cry… who with? Where? When? I couldn’t, only at nights, alone, facing my biggest fear: Loneliness (Which I didn’t know what was until now)

sometimes I have the thought that what’s really happening to me is not even homesickness, but more like ‘facing FINALLY the real life’, getting mature, growing, starting to live. Leave behind the 10’s and living the 20’s.

I knew that some day I was going to do it, but maybe the idea of doing it in a different country, in a different continent, didn’t work.

Somehow, I discovered someone in me that I didn’t know. I’m proud of myself, cause even if I’ve feel awful the last 3 months, now I know that I’m strong, and that I can do things alone.

Life’s scary, when I think about when I was 15 and the biggest problem and worry in my life was “omg I’m gonna fail maths” or “Omg I love this boy who doesn’t love me back” and now it’s like I think about it and I think about how stupid these ‘problems’ were (Altho in that moment they seem to be the worst thing that can happen to u in the whole life) and now, that I’m so worried about my life right now, I think “HAHA I’m only 20, the real worries are still to come”… and it really scares me.

In these 3 months I’ve learnt so much about life, so much about myself, that I’m really amazed at how can a human feel so many feelings in just one day. and the best thing, none but u is the only one that has to deal with them…

I can tell u that in these 3 months, I’ve been sad, yes, I’ve been homesick, yes, but somehow I’ve enjoyed this like hell, I mean, it’s soooooo strange, cause it’s like I can’t be happy 100%, I’m not, but I’ve enjoyed. Enjoyed travelling, knowing new people, knowing a different culture, seeing snow for the very first time, all that kinda stuff.

Last week i travelled to Köln where I FINALLY met Tanja. That’s probably the greatest moment of these 3 months. After knowing her for too long in the internet, getting addict to Milka thanks to her, and so much things, we finally met. it was amazing, and even if was only a short time, i had a GREAT time. THANKS SO MUCH!!!!

This week finally I made up my mind, after so much thinking and thinking, I took the desicion of going back to Mexico. Not now, I mean, not next week, but In february or March. I’m not taking it as a “aww I couldn’t deal with this, I’m going back” but more like “Ok, instead of a year, it’s only going to be half a year”

I know that I had so many plans here, like travelling, meeting more friends and all that, but I think that I’m taking the right desicion. I’m happy with it to be honest. It’s still 3 months left, and I will try my best to ENJOY every single minute of them. I know that a lot of people will see me like “aww she couldn’t do it” but I won’t care. When anyone says that trying to get me down I will say “ohhh have u been out of the country? have u ever tried it? No, right? then shut up” Cause that’s the true. many people might be like thinking that I’m not able to do this, or whatever, thinking I’m weak. But the truth is that ONLY ME and none else knows what I feel like, none knows what’s on my mind, so this is a descion i have to take myself.

I’m not booking the flight yet, I will wait until January that I’m in Tenerife with my host family and there we’ll talk and take the final desicion. They already know I want to leave, but they suggested me to wait till then so that’s what I’m doing.

I like Germany, I sure do, and I would like to be back here later, but older, I dunno, in 5 years, with a good german, and more ready to do this. Cause as u know the plan when i came here was travelling to the UK and Ireland mainly, but I can’t, thanks Euros! so I have to come back and finally travel there, right?

Whenever I go back, even if it’s tomorrow, next month, 3 months or one year, I’ll take the best memories with me. I’ve know great people here, who have been a great support for me (Karina, Katka, Karla, Aischa…too many to mention), I’ve enjoyed this, I’ve seen places, and it’s been great, I will take the best memories with me really. These ones that stay forever. I know that when I go back I will miss this, but only MISS, I won’t regret of being back. Just as I don’t regret of coming here, we’ll see huh?

So ok I’m done with the speach xD if anyone wants to add anything to it, welcome! hahaha

Ps.: Wanna say a HUGE congratulations to the Allcock family for the happy news!!! *big hugs* =)

Hiyaaasssss

eeek yup this is my 1st update as a 20! haha funny huh? Well… none’s asked me how old am I in the last days, so haven’t really felt the “I’m 20″ shock xD

Pretty much has happened since my last update! oh yes =)

Let’s begin with the beginnin =)

My au-pair visa is already on the ‘check-up’ (or whatever u call it) so I’m actually just waiting for an asnwer from the embassy =/ better than nothing huh =) They said it might be ready for the last week of august… so I might be arriving to Germany on the 2nd week of September! Yay!!

So far I already have plans for going over to Tanja’s in October (17 to 19 weekend) so yaaay! I’ll finally get to meet her! Isn’t that exciting! =D and then off to Rugby in December with Luuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! yayus! Then think i’ll go with my host family to Tenerife in March…and then off to Dublin-London for my holidays! wooo it seems all so great! I’m so happy that I’ll get to meet a lot of my friends! oh yup! Let’s see who else wants to meet me!  At the same time it makes me sad that Anne can’t come too, and that I won’t get to meet her =( damn!

oki 2nd update… I’m an auntie!! Mateo was born on July 12th! just one day before me! haha I know, Probably I will never have a birthday again =S everyone will focus on his bday…but I don’t care! I’m just over the moon with him right now =)

Jeeeeez! I’m so damn gonna miss Sofía, Santiago and Mateo once I’m gone… =S eeek I don’t wanna think about it…not just yet.

What else? mmm after a lovely month off school I’ll be bk on Monday to my last german course before I leave… =O wow haha

think there’s not much to say… ooohh I wanna thank all my online girlies who sent me birthday presents and cards!! Lucy, Lene, Jem, Lina, Anne, Tanja (altho I’m still waiting for 3 of them =S) ohh and I hope I ain’t missing someone xD haha

Westlife’s book’s great… I just couldn’t stop laughing at Shane’s randoms comments! Damn..that man’s good! and Kian…haha <3333 Nicky…. what a posh guy! and Mark… awww ain’t he the sweetest thing on earth?! <333 (Thanks Lene!)

So yea…. they’re off already… erm ain’t they? =S let’s just wait now till they’re back…next year =S think it’s all good as long as they do come back xD haha mmmm

Ohhhh I’ve had a kinda passion for photography lately…. not that I’m good tho haha but I just like it a lot… as some of u might now I wanna take a course…some day! ohh and I want a professional camera =( yea some day when I have money!

Here’s a link to my portfolio…just random pictures xD haha

http://gabsmoments.deviantart.com/gallery/

Oky I better get going… I’m painting my room….eeeeek!!

well guys…see yas!!!!

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Haha helloooooooooo!!!

Hows yas? I bet I’ll have the same few ppl reading this as ALWAYS!! =S lol

Ok…lemme remember… when was my last post? I’ve no idea! but let’s beggin again…

Hi I’m Gabriela, 19 years old from Mexico…. KIDDING!

Omg 19 years old =S just for the next 21 days tho! Jeez! feels..weird! =S blah! I guess it’ll be ok! Besides, my 20’s will be great! huh? =P

OK much has been happenin in my life… Remember about me going to Germany as an au-pair? Well I will but not with the same family as before! They just needed someone before and they never replied my last 2 e-mails so… I went on the hunting again and there were a lot of fascinating families, but at the end I ended up with the Sacken Family in München!!! So I’ll be arriving in September!

I can’t wait to be honest! Apart from the experience itself, there’s loads of things that are getting me excited, like meeting my german girls! Tanja, Biggi, and Lina next year! traveling around Europe (well maybe not a lot xD) But I hope I get to meet my girls! Lu *hugs* Mandi, Marie, Liz, Miep, Lenne and loads more! I really hope so! Besides.. I dunno… I wanna travel to Adelaide too but.. its just so expensive =( But somehow I’ll try my best! *hugs Anne*

Ohhh and the Oktober fest!!! =D *beeeer* and and and anddddd The Chocolate Museum!!!! Can you imagine that?! Gosh!! I can’t even think of it without drooling!

OK After a lot of effort I’m just about to finish school… 2 more exams! haha =S  I hope I can finish it soon! But… Chemestry?! oh God… it’ll be hard =S

And then those german classes that have been driving me mad! Nominativ? Dativ? Akkusativ? Ein? Eine? what the hell!?! It’s just too much for my brain xD But I have to! I must go and make that exam at the embassy which I bet will be bad! but I hope not as bad like for they not giving me the visa! Anyways, hopefully I’ll beliving in Germany for 1 year so somehow I gotta learn it huh? xD

Oh and guess what? I’m about to become an auntie! well for the 3rd time xD It’s just a matter of time now! My sister’s hopping to give birth after July 3rd but tbh I’m starting to doubt she’ll make it! If you only saw her… she’s HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE! and the doctor said the baby is 2 weeks bigger than normal which means the baby is about 38 weeks size now and can be born whenever he wants! =O Ohhh well…. we’ll see! It’s all ok whever he wanna be out as soon as it all goes well!

Everything’s been soooo mad lately! Even the doctor told me to relax cause I was way too much stressed =S I had vitamines shots and OUCH! they hurt =P But think I’m getting there slowly xD at least I can sleep properly now! (aha, it’s 2 am and im not sleepy) but well… none’s died for stress, right? =S lol

Wanna take advantage of this space to let a someone know how much I love her!

Lucy: You know that I’m supporting you 24/7 even tho we’re so far away, and that somehow the pain you’re feeling I feel it too cause It hurts so much to think what you’re going through, but hey, smile, you know that God will sometime soon send you a little angel from above and it’ll have already an angel up there! So cheer up love, cause God’s got something good for u and Ant, just dont lose your faith (K)

Ok what else do I have to say? mmm think this is it!

I promise to give u an update soon xD I think haha

Thanks for reading and catch yas later!

xx

Helloooooooooooooooooooo!!!!

Yea soon entry xD lol but had to!!

I’m soooo excited about going to Europe!! Seriously sometimes I have the feeling I’m just dreaming and I’ll wake up any second =( Hopefully not tho!!!

We gotta start saving money girls!! Esp Lu and Tanja xD if anyone else wants to be added to the list then tell me xD oh, but list of what?! Lake Comooooooo!!! Oh yea!! Road trip, plane trip, doesn’t matter how but we’ll make it! I just hope Clooney’s there by then xD altho It still sounds great! the fact of traveling with you girls make me be really excited! And then… March 2009 Ireland! Oh yeaaaaa! =D haha who are we gonna stalk there then? lol <333 And…. if any of u girls wanna come with me to Spain then I’d be thankful xD lmao don’t think u’d helpm me stalk d’nash anyways lol

Oh God I have  a lot of plans for 2008-2009, I seriously hope I can go this time =S cause I’m seriously afraid of the embassy telling me they won’t give me the visa or anything that would stop me from going =( I’d jump from a bridge!

Today I can eat choco agaaaaaaaaaain!!!!!!! yaaaaaaaaaaay! altho it was a bad idea cause i’ve eaten 2 bars! =S lol german choco <3 ah but it was well deserved after a loooong, fun but stupid weekend! haha I got lost on the woods!  poor me lol it was scary!

Haha I had a weird but perfect dream last nite…. I was in a westlifetour show and guess who was with me!! Clooney xD lmao I had never have such a weird dream! lol don’t really use to dream about my idols xD Well deserved erm to that!

 Oky I better get going, lol once again, thanks to my online girls! Anne, Tanja, Lu, cause you three girls proved that you can really have online FRIENDS!! Lil, soz bout the last time, but u know none will NEVER take ur place , Jem,  Haaaaaaappy Birthay! and the other girls, Rosie, Eves, Jem, Marie, Liz,  who are greaaaaaaaaaat friends to me too, I’m really looking forward to meet you this or next year!! =D soz If am missin anyone lol and Lore… remember what I told u, u’re a beautiful person!! You know you count on me ALWAYS don’t you? love ya!xx

Okkk enough blabbering!!!! See youuuu

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Ok Now that was a long time without updates xD

Well…. Wow a lot’s happened in my life since last update really!

Let’s begin with the beginning xD

Yes people, I’m going to GERMANY on July!!! a whole damn au pair year there! wooooow! isn’t that cool!!?!?! Hell it is! I’ll be living in Bad-Reichenhall in Bavaria…. and the pics seem COOOOOOOOOL!!!!!

Of course I’ll take advantage of my time there and I’ll go visiting a lot of places where my best online buddies are!!! Like Norway, Belgium, Spain, Holland, the UK, Ireland, bla bla…. and I’m plannin the soooooo fcking waited trip to Lake Como, Italy!1 If you wanna know what foor, google for famous ppl living there and if u know me well… you’ll know! haha kidding! not really planning to go as a stalker! but yea, the place seems nice so why not!?

 Anyways.. what else? mmm I had my uni exam last month! Right now I don’t even know if I wanna go anymore cause of the trip to Germany…. But sure will enter to uni once I’m back to Mexico!

Isn’t it funny? I’ll finally go to Europe, and when I’ll be there westlife will have their break, so I won’t even have the chance of meeting them xD haha well.. My destiny doesn’t want me to meet them huh? xD well nothing I can do xD Will better go stalking the one from Como xD haha kdn

Aha what else mmm well… think that’s it for now… I hope I can get to add more soon! And well just wanna give a huuuuge thank u to my friends who have been absofuckinglutely great to me the last months! Anne, Tanja, Lucy.. my 20’s girls =P you all rock!!! If it wasn’t for u I’d be totally lost I swear… u’re not just the damn msn contacts who just consider me a contact more on their list…. I hope?!?! =P Msn wouldn’t be msn without u! mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs!!!!!!

xxx

hehe well havent updated for a loooooong time so thought It’d be time for a new post.

Let’s start with the beginning

I hope you all have a lovely 2008!!! As for myself, I hope I get to do all the things I really wanna do. Dunno why, but I have all my hopes in this year… we’ll see what happens, huh?

2007 didn’t end sooooo good you know, been losing things I really appreciate like friends. Dunno, let’s say I just didn’t see their ‘interest’ on this friendship… Have no idea why tho. Some hurt, some didn’t… I think it’s ok to them that I stopped talking cause they haven’t really complained… so maybe I took the right desicions.

I promised myself to call a psychologist (sp?) soon… Altho it still seems weird… If I can’t tell my problems to my friends… how on earth will I tell them to some stranger? people have suggested it tho… maybe they’re right?

I wanna be someone different this year… or more like wanna be the same person I used to be before… well, you know before what. I miss the old Gaby you know? The one who found everything funny, the one who couldn’t be any more silly, the one who loved westlife too bits, the one who was a happy happy person and always put a smile on everyone’s faces. What happened? Perhaps it just needs patience?

I was on holidays last week. It was nice… At least I had some time off and had lonely moments like to think about this and that. I gotta admit it was a charming place… that kinda town where u can see every star in the sky and u can’t hear anything but wood noises. hehe was funny… You know? When the year started (means about 00:10 on january 1st) I left the house and decided to take a walk hehe… Nothing but mountains and me. Was scary cause maybe there were snakes or something, but well… had never done something like that… God, I wish we could do that in Mexico city…

We’ve just had 7 days of 2008 but am already excited about what’s next. I have loads of plans… the main one is to get to university, god, there’s nothing I want more than that. Second, Forget my past, live my present, and try to build a nice future… Maybe that’s the answer to all my problems?

Anyways, won’t bother u anymore… have a nice… january?

 Gaby

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 1 Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why?
6. Describe me in one word
7. what was ur first impression of me?
8. do you still feel the same?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When’s the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something you couldnt?
14.My Fave colour?
15.My Fave food….
16. I have a pet ___
17. My fave band ever
18. My fave MAN ever
19.My fave song ever
20.I Live in
21.My fave country
22. It is my birthday. What do you give me?
23. You want to surprise me. What do you do?

Taken this from a VERY random person hehe

Ah God! I’m just back from a concert!!! THE POLICE!! It was supposed to be 5th row but then it was General but still, was like 5 m away from the stage!!! GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD! It was simply AWESOME!!

Ok I thought I was going to see three OLD men… BUT instead of that I found a really hot and handsome Sting! I dont know the names of the others, but the drums man was hell funny!

When it comes to the lights, the show, and well, considering how a concert is I have no doubt that It’s the best concert I’ve ever been to (Altho for me the best was Westlife’s lol) Well the thing is that seriously people, I recomend 200% to go and see The Police! It’s a chance u will probably never have again, and it’s REALLY worthy!!

OMG when they sang “every breath u take” awwww I wanted to cry! lol that song’s just tooo sweet! The whole place went like every breathe u taaaake Well, they’re the kinda band u GOTTA sing along with!

50.000 people!!! As I’ve been saying all night, it’ll be something u’ll be proud to tell ur grandchildren! lol u can’t see the police every day!! Go Sting speaking spanish!!! he spoke spanish all the time! isn’t he nice =D

oh then it was raining haha we have bad luck for concerts cause it always rains!! (never come to a concert with me or Liliana!) but we enjoyed it like hell! (besides, as it was the front ‘rows’ it was full of rich CUTE guys! haha)

Behind us there were 2 guys who were like FAAAAAAAAAAAAANS lol (one was cute!) and one of them made me laugh so much! he sang every bit of every song but with a lot of feeling! haha he was funny, cause then he shouted on my ear and I went like “OOOUCH” and he was like “ohhh sorry” haha so i just said “nah dont worry, am used to, just scream as much as u want and do it for me too!” haha. God everyone on the public was so taaaaall! Poor me! (5′2 is too short isnt it haha)

The stage and lights is just amazing! and God, they really can play guitars/drums! seriously am amazed by the energy of those men! (U can see a picture up there, not good because it was taken with my mobile!)

Well… my week was… “Normal” lol am a FAAAAN of a spanish boyband called d’NASH (as some of u might have noticed already! lol) and this Mikel guy… wow he’s sooooooooooo handsome!! Was George Clooney my #1? haha nah he still is! But of couse Mikel comes 2nd!!! (don’t deny he’s hell gorgeous)

 Enjoy ur week!!

xxx

Oh God! What an awesome weekend!!!

Well first on Saturday that weird party… was grand! I was falling asleep tho cause I had been up since 5 am! but then lovely vodka arrived! Ah we were mixing some drinks and stuff to get some bombs haha no they were seriously grand! And then Beer! oohh =) lovely! and then vodka again.. how odd huh!

Me, a friend and my cousins were the SILLY group! No seriously, we were laughing at everything like! If someone said ‘hello’ we laughed for 10 minutes at it! I swear I wasn’t drunk! They were, not me.. =P then the dancing… oh God I had been wearing high heels since 9 am and they made me dance! my poor feet are still mad at me =P

At like 4 am the karaoke started… God everyone was singing old spanish rock songs! haha was great (I hope they don’t sack my sister!) haha was great tho!

Well at 6 am everyone was D.R.U.N.K.!!! ore more like pissed and wasted! singing those drunk songs and stuff haha then they finally left!! Buuuuut… yea yea now tidy the house =S

When I wanted to go home and sleep for a whole day.. Oh God! I just had 1 hour to get ready for the concert! =S

 Well well then it was time for the concert… we left and bla bla… This Yahir guy was 3rd (or 4th) place like 5 years ago on something like the mexican idol (named ‘La Academia’ tho) lol and as always..where’s the girl that was 1st place? None knows! hehe but whatever

We were late (how odd) and when we arrived he was singing the 2nd song.

Ok… OMG! It was amazing!!! It wasn’t just a concert of him, more like he was gonna sing with the mexican orchesta! ah god they’re grand!

Seriously, this guy is great! I don’t find him cute, but well… yesterday he looked soooo HOT! and his moves… *drools* ahhh great!!!

Then he sang when a man loves a woman ah I wanted to cry… pure feeling! *sobs*

Well… he sang for about 2 hours, which I really enjoyed!!! (Think about it, I enjoyed it soo much that my throat is sore and I can’t speak haha)

I just bought a cup (I have a cup of every concert I’ve been to hehe) altho I wanted to buy more but.. Nah!

Wanna know something? Last night I was SOOO excited about seeing him… I went thoughtful suddenly… and let’s say I thought: “How excited will I be the day I finally get to see Westlife on tour? or even not on tour… How excited will I be the day I finally get to see Westlife AGAIN?” Ahhh =( for my bad luck… just thoughts cause I doubt It’ll ever happen =( *cries*

 Well anyways.. hehe that was my weekend!

You all have a nice week!

xxx